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Let me let you in on a little secret: I’m selfish. Except when it comes to the needs of my son and beloved, which seem to always climb ahead of my own. I’ve never understood the plight of women who complained about losing themselves because they put themselves last until it happened to me. When beloved first [...] when i found out i was pregnant with the munchkin, beloved struggled with my decision to have him. we were both students, i had just lost my job (our main source of survival), and we weren’t married. from the beginning i knew i wanted to usher this baby into the world. not really because i [...] I’m reminded of my first crushthe wobble in my knees, first touchsummer love ice cream conenights shared with younights spent alonebutterflies, first lovesweaty palms embracing a first hugI’m moved to say in thought of youI can’t imagine living life without you ~Dwele “Without You” (this song PERFECTLY describes the feeling i had in the summer of [...] beloved and i are currently reading Mable Iam’s book, Sex and the Perfect Lover. i know what you’re thinking. why are we reading a book about sex, seeing as we are separated by 3212 miles? well, it’s simple really. this book not only discusses ways to improve your sex life, but it also deals [...] (some of the books i have yet to read, but have owned for quite some time. i will try to get through these over break.) it’s finally here: a break, an extended siesta from the day to day work and struggles of teaching. i’ve been looking forward to this time since september (lol), and it’s FINALLY [...] right now beloved & i need your prayers, well-wishes, positive thoughts, whispers to the ears of God, lit candles, and any anything else you can muster. we are not in a good place right now. i’m not going to hash out all of our intimate details, because some things are private, but we have been [...] sometimes I sit and wonder how my life ended up like THIS. this meaning a solo wife & mommy, trying desperately to hold it all together…on my own (sorta). I wonder what God is trying to teach me by going through all of this. sometimes I wonder why I wasn’t more dedicated to my writing [...] the prisoner’s wife? who really knows. we made it back safely after a week of visiting. it was WONDERFUL to see beloved, although the city we stayed in was a bore. he is almost in Canada, he’s so far away from the city! but it was great seeing/touching/kissing/holding him. he is doing well. he looks [...] I rarely check my email anymore, but recently I received a note from a woman whose boyfriend is locked up (hello, if you’re reading). She wanted some advice. I wondered what profound bit of information I could offer to comfort and guide her? All of my years of education, and nearly two years of dealing [...] beloved’s voice cameclear cross rivers and cities and lakesand projects and concrete and razor wire greeting meslick and soft likehe was tryin to win me overagain i was open savoring each word as if it were my last mealon earth  |
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